Day's go by

So today was a little better as far as emotions are concerned. I can't help but worry everyday! I wonder everyday is this the day this is going to get shut off.(utilities that is) We are so far behind we can't get caught up. If we were caught up it would be so much better. I have yet to get my engine fixed in my truck. I have been having a hard time finding one anyways and if I did find one I either need to sacrifice a bill that needs to be paid ASAP or get the engine. We have let so much go in the last few months to make ends meet. It's so stressful. Just when we think we are getting caught up then we get hit again by something else. Life sucks sometimes! The only thing that keeps me going most of the time is the fact I have 5 of the most wonderful things that has ever happened to me living with me.
I hate how everyone thinks since I am a Glidden I have money. I feel you should earn your money and not expect had outs. I never ask for anything unless I might need a cardboard box to live in at some point in time. It's nobody's place to take care of me and my kids but ours. It just pisses me off to hear someone thinks since my family has money that I do. Newsflash my family doesn't know about my problems most of the time. I prefer them not to. If they new most of the time I would feel like a loser. I hate when people judge you before they know who you really are.
I love my family and would do anything for them that is within reason. Sometimes they drive me up the wall. Like to today they had to fight about every little thing! Felecity woke me up by jumping on me. What a wake up call. Most days I have to pry my butt out of bed. Why do I let this crap get to me so much? How do I not worry? Sorry to ramble on. But I am so frustrated.
Guys have it so easy. They get the adult time,rather it be at work or out and about. Oh well I guess I need to just suck it up! Sorry for the long sob story.